The end : The New Beginning. Perhaps.

Holla. Yes, i am back. After a while, huh? :) I guess majority of the readers/viewers could guess why. :)




I have lost my touch to write. Why? That is not the question here. I have being doing some thinking about changing my page to share my happiness rather than just expressing my angst. Well, it's way better than actually beating up somebody to a pulp, right? Ahahaha. Don't be scared, now. I don't feast on human. At least don't make me. :)


Evidently so, speaking in general, i somehow tried to write about the facts of life, that seemed cruel and yet beautiful ; clinging onto the same boat. When things are beautiful, people treasured and kept it safe. When something awful happened, people will start to point indexes ; blaming others. When will people start to blame themselves, learn to accept defeat and take responsibilities upon their selfish acts? Phew. I'd stopped sighing now.







On the brighter side.


Oh, today was a great day (minus all those problems at work). A dear friend celebrated her 25th birthday. I didn't know about it until a fellow dear friend actually called me while i was entering the office (or practically screamed at me... Giggles). "Syam, today is Sal's birthday", she said.
And there i was, thinking of doing something for her, yet my hands are tied at that moment. So i just said "Just you wait, Sal...! Oh, we are so going to bomb you..!", i jokingly said with moderate tone. Maybe Sal thought i was yelling at her. Ahahaha...! Sal was blushing like a cute kitten. Smirk.



So, i rounded up most of these people in my division excluding her, to come up with something. Sal had worked hard (like others), and by my opinion, she deserved to be treated with something nice from all of us. I mean, i used my own money to throw a mini party for Faeez, so i think it's her turn to be celebrated, though i am not a celebrating-type person. I just like seeing happy faces, and somehow deep inside i cried of joy. Oh, no. I won't get myself weep in public. That would be like figuratively stabbing my thighs with barbecue knives! :))


So, we decided to let two of the girls purchase a cake and some other stuff for the occasion. (Secret Recipe! Yummy...! Oops, got carried away. Pardon me.)


They bought this Chocolate Indulgence for her, mind me if i had the name mistaken. Not good at remembering things that happened recently. STML for short. :) Why am i smiling??? Ahahaha!



They bought some twisties as well, and there i was, deciding whether to or not to munch over those irresistible snacks. Hahaha. They also got a present for her, which is a nice shiny brooch. I never fancy brooches before but this one got my attention. Yes, it was beautiful. Nice taste, ladies. :)



There we were. Singing a Birthday song for Sal. Oh, and while everyone is busy and impatiently waited for her to arrive, no one has lighted the candles! So embarrassing! HAHAHAHAHA! We actually sang her the song without having lit those candles! OMG! AHAHAHAHA! Okay, so now they are lucky to have a smoker around. Yes, that's me. The only smoker around at that time. Faeez was no where to be found. :)) He was supposed to lit those...! Ahahaha! Ehem, my fault as well, because i forgot to ask him to do me a favor. :) What? I am busy, remember??? Hehe.



She had her wish. Read her beautiful Birthday card we bought for her. And it's the first time i saw her smiling all the time. :) What a beautiful scene it was.



So, in a nutshell, we had some laughs for a brief moment. It really soothes my heart witnessing the caress and love shared by people that is not blood-related, and yet share what they have and frankly speaking, i was made happy. Thank you for sharing, guys. You know i love each and every single one of you, even though i may screamed and yelled. Ahahhaa...That's just me. A crazy bear. :)



Oh, a priceless moment. Kept it. Locked.

I will later on add some pictures here. :)






Anyway...



At the moment, i am trying very hard to revert myself. The self that i used to be. The one that people say as care-less. Yes, i was once an awful lad - so they said. I beg to differ. As long as i can remember being myself is what i truly believe, the only reasonable thing that will make me happy.

I remembered that once, i lead a worry-free life. Yes, problems seem lurking here and there, but i overcome them quite easily. No bragging here because i always find a way to deal with those problem with ease with no help from others but myself. Well, that was figuratively ages ago. Giggles.



2008. Yes. The year that i decided to be more aware and sensitive towards people. That was the year i started to think heavily about myself and my surroundings. Oh yes. When people said i am a late-bloomer, they are not mistaken. I admit. I can shine like everyone else. What is the difference anyway? I will eventually get there, so there is no reason what so ever to accumulate what i have or what i am compared to you (people). Life is just. Oh, just let them be.



Particularly, i am not self-centered. I may look that way. It's just that i behave in a way that most people see as rude and yeah, brute. Hey, lookie. I can't even remember my own birthday for crying out loud. Ahahaha! So what's with this gesture of seeing me as being cold and self-centered, anyway? Come on... Giggles. As brute as i may look at certain times, i am not cruel. I know and i learned on terms.

Oh, getting this off the chest wasn't easy. This is just a pebble in the sea of what i wanted to say. At least for now, i won't go to the sensitive part (as yet). I am just trying to have a decent rest tonight, and i hope i won't get fused with my sensitive side for the moment. :) I am thinking heavily at the moment.


This is it for now. Have a wonderful evening to all. :) I'll drop a post again soon enough. :)








My emotional state : Oohhh...My leg is still swelling, but i am just smiling over it.