The web has spun.

Hey there.


It's near a month without any entry from me. Yes. Same reason all over again.


This may be a short entry. I just need to write, i guess.



Sighing now, as i just don't know what is happening around me nowadays. It has been sickening and tiring past few weeks for me. Things happened the way it did, so I'll just keep on going and going, i guess.



Work wise ; very tiring.
We have some major projects going on, and the rest of piling things that needs to be tended to seems to be adding up in numbers. I will try my best to hold on to them and have them finished, god willing.


Brain wise ; very active.
I am kinda stressed with the way i think of things lately. It made me spell words when i never used any of it in my life, as i started to think differently. Yes, i am playing scrabbles in my head. I started to do fusions of related and unrelated things in my life and mixed it up and somehow ideas keep on coming. This has made me stressed out because i don't even know my own expressions when i write those sentences. I had my share of laugh when most people would say that i was in a bad shape. Maybe i was, but generally speaking, i am not. Some friends even said that i am changing again.

"In what form?" i asked.

No answers given. They just said i changed. I d0n't feel any different from who and what i used to be. Maybe i was the person 2 years back? The person who don't talked much, and kept everything inside? Perhaps.


Me wise ; Not much to say here, but old friends said hellos, new friends said goodbyes, and it's just part of life, as i always tried to tell myself to be positive. Relationship wise. Yeah. I met a friend whom shared a thought, but i never tell him of what, who, when, why or how. I just spoke generally and we came to agree that of one thing. We spoke about relationships. I would not write much here, though.



So, that's BASICALLY it.
I was thinking of 4 different things in my mind when writing this, so i could not concentrate as hard as i could, and missing someone is making it harder for me.


So, this is it for now. Need my rest.

Raya Aidilfitri 20th October 2009 (Update)

Yeah, the first day of Hari Raya Aidilfitri. I got fever since 6 am in the morning, and it really makes me a bit drowsy that morning...got up early, do the necessary preparation for guests, had my breakfast, then eat some meds, just for the sake of Raya. :)


Oh, my mum wore her new outfit we bought for her, and she looked as beautiful than ever.
I don't mind spending a fortune for her. She's my angel, and forever she will be. I love you mum... :) All the muahs for you!!!

So, the morning of Raya went on like past years, well, not since the 3 past years when my dad passed away in Ramadhan 3 years back. Al-Fatihah...


Nothing much in particular happened this Raya. As usual, people come, chat, giggled exchange stories and mostly just catch on with things happening with their lives. As for me, i am always the one that sit in a side watch everything that goes on, while thinking about lots of things. :)

The best part of this Raya was when i got reconnected to some old friends. Yes. Been out of contact for more that 10-17 years back, when some good that came out from the benefits of the internet.

Yes. Raya is the day. For most of us it's the best day of the year, and maybe for their entire lives. Me?

Keeping it the same. As usual.

Raya Aidilfitri 20th October 2009 (Pre)...

Hey guys, it's been a wonderful month of Ramadhan.

Here i am, in my mother's house, experiencing slight fever, but it's okay. :)


A lot of things happened to me during this Ramadhan and yes, it teaches me a lot too, especially this year. :)

I would not say much as for now, though there's so much to say at the moment, because i am feeling feverish... I will update the Raya Aidilfitri 20th October 2009 (Pre) soon enough...

At the moment, Have a great Hari Raya Aidilfitri you guys...! :)







My emotional state : Weary, but happy... MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN. :)