Hey there,
It has been a week of Ramadhan. A blessed month. Should be,huh?
Yes, i have been busy with life again. Not much to share, only these feelings i have for the past weeks. I just couldn't understand one simple word. LOVE.
What is that? Well according to wikipedia, i quote for short :
"Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection[1] and attachment. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that meal") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my boyfriend"). This diversity of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.
As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings, from the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual emotional closeness of familial and platonic love[2] to the profound oneness or devotion of religious love.[3] Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in the creative arts."
So, okay. I get the general idea of the word. Yes, the definitions seem too familliar for us humans. Everybody will come up with the same answer ; which by my interpretation, it is a typical word. Mind me. I came across few number of friends whom did have problems in maintaining love. I often asked them about what happened, why things happened that way, and such. I guess there will be no answers to that, as i noticed, every loving couple had issues to deal with.
Me? Of course i have the same problem. My problem is that i get emotionally confused with gestures. Yes, people seem nice. People seem caring...and i suppose being in that state is considered love too, ain't it? But sometimes what we saw is not what we saw. Well, at least, what i saw.
So it means, love have values, but what is the method to of accurately calculate and differentiate between much types of unconditionally love? I guess probably, there isn't a way. We ourselves need to deter how things in love works and thus value it.
Hey, it's just me saying things out loud. I may be wrong, but my experience don't teach me lies. I tend to be very careful and yes, being that allows me to develop a keen sense of being not too trusty towards people. I consider it as my own personal defense system. I got breached, taken over and finally left corrupted. I sometimes hate it when that happens.
Yes, being me, a person that is so easy to feel attached to somebody else, seriously have effects on me. I get rather sensitive for all that matter. I guess i can call it as EMOTION BOOSTER. Well, mostly it gets to my bad side. So, when things get cranky, i get emotional. Talk about frequent mood swings, huh?
So, i guess for now, i will have no use for love except the love to myself and family, perhaps. Until the day comes, i'd be me.
I'll stop here for the moment. Need to catch some air.
My emotional state : Mixed up. Haywire.
