It's only you...

Hey there, viewers / readers.

I'm not into writing much these days, as i am still preoccupied with some major changes in the phase of my life and my surroundings have changed quite a bit as well. I've gained some good experience and some was rather bad, but hey, that's just life.


I am really trying so hard to adapt, but i guess eventually, i will. :)
...and maybe it's time i learn to let go of something i dearly hold on to. It's just a SIMPLE MAYBE perhaps. Possibilities lies at every corner, right?


Not a sigh of relief nor disappointment, but it's just a common sigh in between.

For what matters now, i would like to share something i wrote.

It's only you...

Dear loved,

I just want you to know

that i have been loving you

with all sincerety and with all my heart.

You have made me smile,

when no one was able to.

You have made me happy,

when i was in despair, alone,

and in need.

I am

forever yours to keep.

I will be strong for you,

and i will be stronger

for each and every given second,

though i might stumble,

but i will get up

because of you.

Thank you, loved.

I love you very much.

With all my heart.

My emotional state : .........................................

Dear viewers/readers,


It has been a while since i posted an entry. It was unspeakably and tiring past few months for me, due to many forms of task and journeys i had to make, if i may say. :)

I can't write when my mind's not set, when it's jammed, when I'm not prepared and mostly when i was driven by emotions. When that happens, i get cranky and people will hate me. :))

However, for the time being, i just want to share this lyrics from a song. It's the closest to what i am feeling for the past months.





THE ROSE (Bette Midler)


Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed


Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you its only seed


It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live


When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose




This song was sung by Westlife, and it is beautiful.







My emotional state : I miss you so...

Sengal Kambing...!!!

Aduh...

I baru je baca satu e-mail dari seorang mamat yang rasa dirinya semacam bagus je...Ada ke patut dia compare my photo artworks dengan dia punya. Punyalah bagus attitude tu. Claims himself as the better photographer (which i think not!)... Who does he think he is? Dalam email tu yang supposed to be annonymous tu (which i think he's buta IT jugaklah sebab i can trace the IP, jackass...!), dia takdelah kata work aku tu tak best or macam tu...But what kills the cat was, dia siap upload sekali photo yang dia shoot. I mean, what the fork(and spoon)?!!

Kenapa lah, jika ia pun nak comment, jangan la pulak nak compare between photos...Dah ternyata i punya lagi best, tapi tak sedar-sedar dari mimpi ngeri rupanya makhluk asing ni, where ever he may came from. Agaknya, what he needs is a good smack in the head plus a few hundred slaps on the face. Tak sedar diri lagi?! Sepak kat SITU sampai senak...dan senak tu pulak dapat dirasai oleh 7 keturunan makhluk asing itu.Itu pun, kalau dia mampu nak cari pasangan hidup lah... >:)

Aduh...Bukan sebab i sakit hati. Aduh sebab ada juga manusia macam makhluk asing ini, yang tidak mempunyai otak atau akal yang mampu memberikan input rasional kepada pemikirannya. Is he the best, anyway?! Ya, ampun! It's a No with capital N...! I rasa lah kan, dear readers/viewers, among those professional photographers i personally know, kualiti gambar makhluk asing ni tak sampai 20% kualiti pro pun... So why the heck is he mumbling about being a pro, anyway? What a pain in the rear! Hahaha...Puas hati ke dapat menjatuhkan orang lain, makhluk asing oh, makhluk asing oi...

Kalau dah pro sangat, patutnya dia ajar orang. Not boast like a grumpy pig. I rasa lah kan, sesiapa yang tetiba hilang akal nak menuntut dengan dia yang SANGAT HEBAT ini, tak sampai 6 minit akan terjun bangunan. Tak tahan, beb kalau jumpa makhluk asing yang tak pernah cuba nak lihat cermin seperti dia itu...Cermin pun retak kot? Entahlah...Mungkin itu memang dia, kan?

I pun tak kenal dia ni asal dari longkang mana.

I don't know and i don't care.

Who am i to judge right?

Apa lah punya manusia...Ikut hati, nak je publish nama dia kat sini...Biar dia tahu tinggi mana langit tu. Sengal kambing!!!Apa lah nak jadi dengan dunia sekarang ni...Ikan besar makan ikan yang kecil..Padan lah dunia ni asyik tak aman, perang sana, perang sini. Anyway, i tak amik peduli tentang orang-orang macam dia ni.

Tak layak digelar manusia pun.

My emotional state : What a waste of talent...